A New Year

And so here we are again, another new year was just ushered in last night. To me, it seems like we just rang in 2012 six months ago. I'm sure I've said it before and I'll say it again but my elders are right. Time really does go by faster and faster with each passing year. And it actually kind of makes me a little bit sad. I mean, I am trying to make the most of every opportunity that arises, yet some days I feel like I am missing important things. Life was so much more carefree and exhilarating as a child. Now it's like I've gotten into that same familiar rut: Work, sleep, eat, work, eat, sleep, etc, etc. I think 2013 will usher in all sorts of new opportunities for me. I am going to start making the most of my life while I still can.

2012 wasn't exactly a great year by any means; it was just more or less okay. Firstly, there was a decent amount of turmoil that surrounded work. Would I be laid off, would I be working? It was a challenging year in the work department but I am happy to say that I was only laid off for one week. I mean sure, one side of you could think that getting laid off and receiving unemployment would be nice for awhile. But then awhile turns into too long. That wasn't the case for me in 2012. That's not to say that if I were laid off for a longer period of time that I'd be struggling from the get go. But it's always nice to know that you have a job to go to regularly. So all in all, everything in the work department turned out okay. Still, there were plenty of rumors and hearsay surrounding my place of employment, and we may be heading down a similar road in 2013.

The nearly three year relationship ended with my girlfriend in July. Honestly it was inevitable and it probably should've ended sooner. But I think I was holding on for as long as I could to see if our relationship really could be for the rest of our lives. It didn't end up being so. It ended rather abruptly and pretty foolishly on my part. Instead of confronting her and calling it off in a civil way, she had to find out in a way that still shames me to this day. I didn't cheat on her by any means; I am not that kind of man. But I wasn't upfront with my feelings from the get-go and it's something I truly regret. It's unfortunate that we weren't able to make things work, however life does move on. I am hoping that 2013 is an improvement in my relationship status.

I've brought this up before in the blog and it's still an ongoing issue. My mental health still isn't where it needs to be. I've been dealing with a form of anxiety for a couple of years now and I am on two different medications for it. Believe me, it's a lot better than what it initially was, but I still have some work to do. I have a doctor's appointment later this week that will hopefully correct these anxious feelings that I have once and for all. In 2013, I also look to be more up front about my anxiety than I have been. For one thing, I've never told my parents what I've been going through. I don't normally make resolutions, but one that I am making this time around is to tell my immediate family of what's been going on. It's going to be a struggle and I truly have let this "secret" go on for too long. I guess I am anxious to talk about my anxiety. I know I shouldn't be, but a part of me thinks that I'm going crazy and that once everyone else knows this, then they'll think the same. I know that's a foolish thought and it's one thing I look to correct in the new year. I also am hoping to improve my physical health as well, seeing as how I gained nearly 10 pounds from one year to the next. It's time to start cutting back on the sweets, working out at home, and to eat more fruits and veggies.

So, with 2012 out of the way, things can only get better in 2013. Like I said, it's not like the past year was all that terrible; it was more or less just average. I am hoping 2013 proves to be an exciting year with many great memories to cherish. Here's hoping that you and yours has a wonderful 2013. See you next time on the blog...